Me Finally Sober
I had a lot of trouble with drugs for the past 7 years. I am 25 years old now and my boyfriend was finally sick of my shenanigans about a year ago. I almost died in his arms three times and although he had gotten sober I was still occasionally using heroin. I'm in nursing school and trying so hard to get my license. I knew that wasn't going to happen and I was going to lose my relationship if I didn't get sober. I've been working for the past year having months of of sobriety ruined by slips over and over again.
So what got me sober.... Self motivation!!! I had to realize I needed to do it for me. I had a lot of trouble getting hooked up with a doctor that would administer the newer drug vyvatrol. But when I finally started getting it I came to the conclusion that I will get wicked sick if I use so why even think about using. Why not focus on changing myself to make myself happier and healthier?
Everyday I give me self a check mark for sobriety, eating right, exercising, doing something for myself, and getting the right sleep. I can track my progress and see how my mood is affected by the things I am doing to improve myself.
I see the best drug therapist in the universe once a week for an hour and go to her women's group on Tuesday nights for a few hours.
I was always very anti-AA and twelve steps but recently I have been going to the Lyndhurst ha meetings and found that a lot of the people are just like me. I can actually relate to them.
I also do SMART recovery online. It is a great way to keep track of my progress and I can white journals and see other people's stories and comment. I can also do online meetings from home on smart. The text meeting rooms are also helpful and if u ask the right questions and are committed to being sober and getting sober people are really receptive. U can build a online friend support group.
So I have a therapist, get vyvatrol, go to group, do ha, do smart recovery online and personally work everyday to be the best me. I have lost weight, have been much happier, decreased my anxiety meds, and have been sober.
Couldn't be happier!!!!!!